You guys. THERE’S A BABY GROWING IN MY BELLY and I can’t keep it a secret any longer.
And I’m hoping that by telling you, it might start to feel a little more real to me. Like I might start to believe that it’s actually happening. Not that I have any reason to think it isn’t happening. I’ve only been feeling about 7461 times worse than I felt with the last pregnancy. The past few months have been seriously rough so I’m taking it as a good sign. And a couple of weeks ago, we saw a perfectly healthy and happy little baby in there with a strong heartbeat. Cue the giant exhale.
So how far along am I? I’m 10 weeks and our little love is due in October. A spring baby.
So yes, it’s still early days but somehow it just didn’t feel right if I didn’t share this rollercoaster of a journey with you. All of it. I hate the cultural taboo of not talking about early pregnancy *in case* something goes wrong. We find it so hard to talk about loss and grief and so keep everything hush hush so we might avoid it. But this just means that if something does go wrong, we don’t have the support in place. It also just generally makes the first trimester a really lonely and isolating time and, believe me, it’s hard enough in the first place! Everyone’s different but for me, I know that whatever happens, I’ll need to talk about it anyway so why not start now?
Each day I wake up feeling so grateful that I’m pregnant. It’s such a blessing and I feel so lucky to be here again so soon after my miscarriage. Having said that, I’m also super conscious of those who are longing for a baby but for whatever reason, it hasn’t happened yet. Pregnancy announcements are wonderful but they can also be very hard to see too. So if that’s you, know that I’m thinking of you.
Already, I feel like I have SO MUCH to update you on. Pregnancy is a weird and wonderful thing and things seem to be changing almost daily! There will be a new pregnancy post series launching here on the blog where I’ll be sharing ALL the things. I can’t wait to tell you about how we found out and about the weeks that followed. For now, just know that I can no longer do my pants up, I can’t keep my eyes open past 9pm and I’m thinking about food approximately 98% of the time. Who woulda thought something so little could wreak so much havoc?!
And thank you, you lovely lot, for being so supportive throughout my journey. I feel very lucky to have you.
For now, if you’d like to get up to date on my pregnancy journey, read these posts: